Does it change?

Does it change ?
Does it ever change that constant pain in the chest that devours you day by day.
You want to break free but it knows you too well..
And it can predict your every step before you even think of moving.
Crawling in your spine , yearning to strike once more with the ultimate power it possesses.
It is the power you gave it.
Your darkened mind has crowned it king of your will.
You have made it fearless , unbeatable ,just like you made yourself weak.
You yearn for the light but you are too afraid to feel its warmth, in case it is the first and last time you will face it.
You cry for pains nonexistent , fearing that they might come..
You are afraid ...