Gia pou...?

Gia pou kinountai oi anemodeiktes tis zois mou....

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Se pio rythmo kiloun oi leptodeiktes tis...

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Pros pio proorismo...

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Ine nyxtes san ki ayti...

Ine nyxtes san ki aytin pou anarotiemai an axizei na skorpizesai mesa stin oneiroskoni ...

Na arneisai peismatika na fimoseis to paidi pou mourmouraei sto kefali sou akatalavistikes gia tous pollous krayges , pou sou zitaei na toy kaneis ta xatiria , na toy kratiseis parea sta skotadia sas , na ta moirasteis mazi toy...

''Mia zoi aitherovateis paidi mou esi kai ta vafeis mayra'' mou lene oloi...
''To mayro ine keno , to leyko einai ola ta xromata'' mou lene oloi...

Mipos telika ontos ime toso egoistria , opos mou xes pi L.?
''den ine olos o kosmos anaisthitos kai si mono eyaisthiti...'' eixes pei.

Kai tora ti? Kai tora pos?Kai tora pote?

Pote ta matia pou koitazo tha dakrysoyn prota ayta gia mena ,pote tha metrisoyn prota to vathos ton dikon moy gia mia fora, pote tha paramerisoun ta plithi gia na ftasoun se mena pote tha milisoun me omorfes siopes na tis katalavainoume mono ego ki ayta , pote tha poyn oti den ime toso lathos, pote tha me kanoyn na noioso sosti ,axia na ta koitazo, pote tha me koitaxoyn katamata?

Pote ?

''Kapoios ipe pos i agapi se ena asteri katoikei

avrio vrady tha mai ekei

Kapoios ipe pos o erotas gia mia stigmi krata

avrio vrady tha nai arga

Kapoios ipe pos o dromos einai i fleva tis fotias

psixi mou panta na kylas

Kapios ipe pos taxidi ine mono i proseyxi

kardia mou na sai zontani...''

To vlemma

Mono to vlemma emeine na gemizei to keno domatio...

Na ermineyei tis siopes ...

Aytes tis ateleiotes kai ekofantikes siopes poy tora kateklizan tin atmosfaira...

Oso pio vathia i matia , toso pio makry to taxidi , toso pio asimanti i diarkeia, o proorismos...

Arkei na proftaso to vagoni...

Tha katadyomai sto vytho mou...

Tha katadyomai sto apythmeno vytho ton skepseon mou opote ego to orizo akous...
Tha anasaino me tin anases ton poihton pou ego dialego akous...
Den zitao para mono i monaxia mou na ine diki mou apolita, moirasmeni katholous akous...
Mou aniki kai tin exo plirosi poli akriva kai polles fores...
Exo kouvalisi polles enoxes , polles fores gia sena akous...
Mi mou ''dorizeis'' toso aploxera ki alles , den tis antexo akoys...
Den me peirazei to mayro xroma mou forao akoys...
Den me varainei ayto opos les ...
Ine to mesa mou pou gernei pros tin monoxromia kai oxi to exo poy me kathorizei...
Alla panta etsi itan gia sena ta pragmata , mia epifaneia, mia epifanis epifaneiaki katigoroiopiisi ton exoterikon mou ekfraseon kai epilogon ...
Pote ligo pio pera, pote ligo pio vathia...
Ase loipon na gratzounao tis pliges mou me ta dika mou xeria...
Na me pligono mexri ekei pou mporo...
Alloste to kano kala, den xreiazomai voithia...oute kai parapano krisi xreiazomai
~Akous...

Black is the color of my true loves hair...

''Black is the color of my true love's hair , his pace so soft...

....the purest eyes and the strongest hands .

I love the ground on where he stands.

Black is the color of my true love's hair....

Ayti i foni me sygkinei toso vathia panta
Apo tote pou ti sinantisa tyxaia stous titlous telous mias tainias.
Etsi anapantexa kai sintoma opos oles oi orees stigmes , giati stigmes ine i eytyxia
Stigmes pou tremopaizoyn san keria sto eleos enos xafnikou anemou...
To xero apo mena exartatai na afiso ti floga na svisei arga i grigora...

''Ne me quittes pas, Il faut t'oublier,...''
''Mh m'egkataleipeis , prepei na se ksexaso.....
den mporo pia na klapso, den mporo na miliso, krivomai ekei...''

Kleino ta matia kai afino ti foni tis Nina Simone na me taxidepsei arga , melagxolika kai ''Mple'' , mono opos ekeini xerei kai mporei , gia akoma ligo na ziso ''ekei'',kato apo to peplo mias fonis, mias pseydaisthisis


''Isn't it a pity, isn't it a shame,
how we break each others hearts and cause each other pain ,
how we take each others love without thinking any more ,
forgetting how to give back
how to remember,
some things take so long
but how do i explain,
when not too many people can see
that we are all the same, because of
all that tears our eyes can hold to see the beauty that surrounds them
isn't it a pity...''

Den anhkw edo...

Den anhkw edo nomizo.
Kapio lathos prepei na exei ginei den mporei.
Den mporei ta dika mou sinaisthimata na diastrevlonontai panta pros ti thlipsi, tin monaxia , tin esostrefia..
Simera to xanapa , den mporo , den thelo na ertho..
Thelo na xatho stin poli moni mou, den thelo na propathiseis na me katalaveis , thelo na me dexteis opos ime, mporeis?
antexeis?
Mporeis na me antexeis?
Na me agapiseis opos ime, na exeis ipomoni?
To xo anagki...
Exo kanei pollous simvivasmous sayton ton allotrio planiti, ego mia akoinoniti figoura se ena kosmo kat'epaggelma koinoniko..
Kai merikes fores nai, katoiko mesa se stixous kai se melagxolikes mousikes, se allotries eikones pou provalontai se panines othones, se anamniseis kai myrodies...
Tis afino na mou giatreyoun gia ligo tis pliges pou mou xarazei sixna i mera, o eaytos mou , i anthropini sklirotita.
Ase me na prospatho opos xero, mi me krineis , dexou me opos ime ,an thes, an mporeis , an antexeis...
Allios ase me na epizo mesa se aniparktous kosmous ,...


'' giati itan enas makrys krios xeimonas xoris esena..
Pali xeglistrises anamesa apo ta akrodaktyla mou ...
Kai ine diskolo na vro ti dinami tora...
Giati oti kai an po
oti kai an kano
den mporo na allaxo ayta pou eginan
Pali xeglistrises anamesa apo ta akrodaktyla mou
kai ntrepomai toso poli..''

Giati m'agapises

Den tragoudo para giati m'agapises
sta perasmena xronia
Kai se ilio se kalokairiou promantema
kai se vroxi se xionia
den tragoudo para giati m'agapises

Mono giati me kratises sta xeria sou
mia nyxta kai me filises sto stoma
mono giayto ime orea san krino olanoixto
kai exo ena rigos stin psixi mou akoma
mono giati me kratises sta xeria sou

Mono giati ta matia sou me koitaxan
me tin psixi sto vlemma
perifana stolistika to ipertato
tis iparxis mou stemma
mono giati ta matia sou me koitaxan

Mono giati opos pernaa me kamaroses
kai sti matia sou na pernai
ida ti ligeri skia mou os oneiro
na paizei , na ponaei
mono giati opos pernaa me kamaroses

Giati distaxtika san na me fonaxes
kai mou aploses ta xeria
k eixes me sta matia sou to thampoma
mia agapi pleria
giati distaxtika san na me fonaxes



Mono giati mono se sena arese
giayto emeine oreo to perasma mou
San na m'akolouthouses opou pigaina
sa na pernouses kapou ekei sima mou
Giati mono se sena arese

Mono giati m'agapises genithika
giayto i zoi mou edothi
sti axari zoi tin anekpliroti
mena i zoi plirothi
Mono giati m'agapises gennithika

Monaxa gia ti dialexti agapi sou
mou xarise i aygi roda sta xeria
Gia na fotiso mia stigmi to dromo sou
Mou gemise ta matia i nixta asteria
Monaxa gia ti dialexti agapi sou

Monaxa giati toso orea m'agapises
ezisa na plithaino
ta oneirata sou oree pou vasilepses
kai etsi glika pethaino
monaxa giati toso orea m'agapises

There are some remedies worst than the disease...

Shrink

To feel this great urge
To hold and embrace you
I slowly dry out

I shrink and shrink
Until I'm gone
Nothing to make out of me
Oh what the hell went wrong
My heart gets pulled out
Into your direction
It's no use
You have forsaken me...

Mprosta apo ena egklima.

Einai mia apo aytes tis fores pou trexeis trexeis trexeis san na ise skyli se kyndromies na ftaseis ayto to ''lafyro'' pou proporeyetai mprosta sou kai meta siniditopoieis oti ine entelos pseytiko to epathlo sou ..



Einai san na ise nostalgeis to gyrismo san ton Odyssea stin patrida, (oti kai an orizeis san patrida i an thes proorismo) kai afou peraseis ta pandina gia na antikriseis xana to eidolo tou antikeimenou tou pothou sou ayto na min ine pleon tipota allo para mia diastrevlomeni anamnisi enos idanikou. Kai epipleon oute kan o Kavafikos orismos tis axias tou taxidiou na min mporei na apodothi stin periplanisi sou..


Einai san na ermineyeis ena vlemma , mia kinisi ,mia aisthisi , meta na peitheis tin apisti sineidisi sou oti diavase sosta ta simadia, na mathaineis na zeis , na anapneeis ,na fytroneis se mia atmosfaira sinaisthimaton kai aisthiseon kai epeita se mia tosi da stigmi na saronontai ta themelia tis toso epipona stirigmenis pseydaisthisis sou oloklirotika..


Einai san na eisai martyras , enoxos , dikastis kai dikaiouxos se ena egklima...